Ready, Set, GO!! Winter's here!!!

Well, I can't believe it's going to be December soon! Yeah, Christmas is around the corner! The weather here has been just amazing. Cool, cold and sunny. It's a little warmer today, but beautiful! I'm not up to much...but I'm thoroughly enjoying spending time with my friends and family. We had a ton to catch up on!

I'm really trying to get my spiritual walk in order. Finding time for yourself is difficult, let alone finding time with God! It seems impossible! Being a mom has truly challenged me to the core. I see God doing some miraculous work in my heart regarding past issues, and etc. He's softening me---my spirit, my heart---many people mistake that I'm shy or I'm passive b/c I'm quiet and reserved, but deep inside, I'm really not those things... my nature is just cautious and critical. But God's working...

Sunday nights are my favorite time to watch TV b/c of two shows---Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. I love the show Desperate Housewives b/c I sense a deep relation/connection to the four women.

Lynette is my personal favorite b/c I relate to her the most. Like her, I have a deep longing to be part of a company and having a career and much of my image build-up is work. I enjoy the hard work, the meetings, the adrenaline, the accomplishment of goals, the promotions, the teamwork, and etc. But deep inside, there's a softness and care about her and I know it's due to being a mom who adores her kids.

Susan...what can I say, but that she's an emotional mess. I AM AN EMOTIONAL MESS. Women are emotional! Yes, I am a woman!

Gabrielle is hilarious. I have the same superficial materialistic tendencies as she does. I'm not saying that I need to spend a fortune on an Aston-Martin, but I love fashion, some luxuries and of course, exotic vacations. I grew up near NYC and the NorthEast society thrives on high end fashion and luxuries. I'm a product of that image...but God has changed me! Thank you! To be honest, I enjoy splurging a little! (God knows this and has done an amazing job instilling wisdom, maturity, and character in me)

Bree is outwardly everything I want to be. Proper, sophisticated, and PERFECT. Everything move she makes, everything she touches is with utter perfection. She has a inner life full of fears compounded with grief, disappointments coupled with anger, and expectations that fail her. She's not in control the fragility of being human is so evident in her inner life. I too am like her.

Just some thoughts...

Anyways, here are some new pics of little Jaden!

Birthday, Birthday!

Yesterday, I turned 26! Yep, I'm still in my mid-twenties. Won planned a romantic day for me and it was so awesome. He's the best! Also, thank you to all my wonderful friends who gave me shoutouts, phone calls, e-cards, and gifts. I felt special, really special!

Being back in NJ/NY is great and we feel so right here. We are near so much culture, not only a diverse group of people, but a myriad of things to do, an array of interests and numerous options for restaurants. I absolutely love it.

Right now, I beginning to plan for Jaden 1st birthday. I can't believe it. I'm so sad that Owen, Hailey and Caitlyn won't be able to come!!!

Well, i'll write more later!!!

2 by 2 MEME!

I'M IT! Tagged by EJ... :)

2 names you go by:
1. BOAH- my Korean name
2. CA- my close high schools friends call me that

2 parts of your heritage:
1. Korean
2. Korean

2 things that scare you:
1. Heights
2. Childbirth

2 of your everyday essentials:
1. Coffee
2. Prayer

2 things that you are wearing right now:
1. Black Juicy velour pants
2. White Tank from Gap

2 favorite songs (at the moment):
1. Heard 'Em say - Kanye West & Maroon 5 (it doesn't mean I condone his political views/lifestyle)
2. Collide - Howie Day

2 things you want in a relationship (other than real love):
1. friendship/connection
2. understanding

2 truths:
1. You are loved by God, no matter what
2. Life is a journey...sometimes long, sometimes short, sometimes neither

2 physical traits in the opposite sex that appeal to you: (MY HUSBAND)
1. I love Won's smile...so genuine!
2. I love Won's arms...so muscular!

2 of your favorite hobbies:
1. shopping
2. photography

2 things you want really badly:
1. a vacation
2. a king-size bed

2 places you want to go on vacation:
1. New Zealand
2. Africa

2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Set up an orphanage in Cambodia
2. Travel all over the world

2 ways you are stereotypically a dude/chick:
1. Cry during emotional scenes in movies
2. Everything Jaden does melts my heart

2 things you are thinking about right now:
1. "Man, I need to finish unpacking."
2. "I'm tired..."

2 stores you shop at:
1. Bloomies
2. Target

2 people you would like to do this:
1. Wonki
2. Jonnieboi

More Whirls & Twirls

Won and I arrived safely to NJ! Yes, we made it. Our apartment is wonderful and I am so thrilled to be here. Well, let me begin...

Our movers came an entire day later, so we didn't leave until Monday, 10/31/05. Due to Hurricane Wilma, everything was backed up. We were so upset since we didn't even get a phone call to let us know. Then, we finally made it to New Brunswick, NJ on Nov. 1st by 5pm, 30 minutes before the leasing office closed. We got our keys and settled in as much as we could. Then our close friend, John, came to visit us on the 2nd of November and is staying with us until Monday. Then, the movers came on Thursday, Novermber 3rd.

Lastly, today, MY GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY. I am devastated and extremely sad. But, the reality of her death still has yet to set in since I'm so exhausted and a myriad of things are running through my mind. She was so beautiful and loved JESUS whole-heartedly. Since she was 97, we were all expecting her death at any moment, but the fact that it has happened today was such a downer for me. The viewing is on Sunday and the funeral on Monday. I feel as though this might be the last straw that will lead to my emotional outpouring of utter helplessness. Funny, God truly seems to close a door in my life as He opens another.

Timing has been a theme in my life and surely, God works in mysterious ways (but sovereignly). Pray for me and I have been meditating on the song lyrics "Blessed be Your Name" by Matt Redman, which is also chapter in Ecclesiates.

Blessed Be Your Name

In the land that is plentiful

Where your streams of abundance flow

Blessed be your name

Blessed Be Your name

When I'm found in the desert place

Though I walk through the wilderness

Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing you pour out

I'll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in

Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name

When the sun's shining down on me

When the world's 'all as it should be'

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name

On the road marked with suffering

Though there's pain in the offering

Blessed be Your name

Every blessing you pour out

I'll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in

Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away

You give and take away

My heart will choose to say

Lord Blessed be your name

On a side note, my sister, Stephanie, really wanted to celebrate Halloween with Jaden, so she and Eddie bought this pumpkin costume. Jaden really does look absolutely precious.